hello everyone, i am just new. i have been going through a rough time in the past few years with depression. i've been medicated and been to therapy various times. things seem to come in patches of either really big highs or terribly bad lows. i've been having a low the past few weeks and starting cutting my legs to escape from the pain. i don't have any friends, but have been in a relationship for 6 years. my boyfriend lies to me about where he is all the time and only wants to see me once a week. he also likes telling me 'why don't you just cut yourself properly and end it'. this has been going on for years. i have reached the point in the life where i just don't want to cut my legs, i want to do more. i don't want to be here.