Thank you so much, SF. I have NOONE. I've never felt so alone. My only friend is my neighbor who I hang out with. She's a widow too and disabled. My sister has a typical M.O.: she acts like nothing happened because she's so used to getting her own way. But she crossed the line for good here. I really don't ever want to talk to her again. My mother is "worried about me". But I really don't want to talk to her, either. Or any of my family at this point. Any advice? I don't want the police coming to my door for a "wellness check" (bet everyone here knows what that is). Thank you again, everyone here. I am suffering.
I get it. I think the best advice is what
@Lady Wolfshead suggested, which is to learn about narcisstic abuse and npd immidiately..that info should help support your decisions, lift up your self worth again and your defenses..it may help you understand your mom and rest of the family too and help you know how to or how NOT to interact with them anymore.
I know the lonliness, the alienation, the isolation but I also understand the need to not have contact and to not be ina position where you have to deal with this level of disrespect. You owe nobody anything, this behaviour is dangerous and unacceptable. Right now what matters is you. Pamper the hell out of yourself..tell your neighbor you need a little more support right now, take your grievances to here for a bit and try learning ab the psych warfare being enacted on you. I posted something on my thread "it's the darkest it's ever been" if you want to read ..it's ab narcisstic abuse.
And find an outlet for the anger and rage she has caused you. Don't hold it in, and don't take it out on yourself. Here for ya.