So.. I'm a member here but I'm too embarrassed to talk about this under my username (if you figure out who I am please don't say, thanks) I've gotta talk about this somewhere and this is the only place I have, sorry how for insufferably emo it is. I'm crazy about someone, I don't wanna say love because that word is thrown around too much but I think it might be. We were sort of thinking about being together until she got back with her ex, which hurt me massively, but I care about her so much and want her to be happy more than I want her for myself. So I resolved to do the honourable thing and swallow my feelings and never tell her. No matter how much it hurt. She's now broken up with her ex again though, but there's kinda someone else she likes. I'm so confused, I just don't know what to do. I tried to give up hope, she doesn't want me, give up and move on. But it's making me so depressed, and we're pretty close, and I'm terrible at lying... Basically last night we were talking online, I didn't tell her how I feel but I think she figured it out, and she said some things that might've been hints but I don't know if that was just wishful thinking on my part. I convinced myself I was just being stupid until some umm other stuff happened (read between the lines please) and I don't know if that happened just because she was "in need of some company". Argh, I'm over analysing everything. I'd just come right out and ask her whether she has any feelings for me but I'm terrified of losing her friendship. I wish I could just stop having these feelings.