I'm just trying to decide...what's the best way to end it? I don't want drugs because I hate throwing up and getting sick. I love cutting myself, but I don't want to leave a huge mess for people to clean up. I don't have access to a gun. Carbon monoxide? Poisoning? I just need advice about the best way to die. I'm not here for encouraging words anymore. I've held on for too long and I'm tired. Every fiber of my being aches and I can't even stand to breathe. It ends tonight. If anyone can give me advice as to how to go about it, I would appreciate that. If not, I'll just have to figure it out on my own.