id like to start out that im not suicidal. . . im just very confused. a week ago my grandfather was diagnosed with leukemia. the doctors say its a 50/50 chance of him makeing it through and a 70/30 chance of him living with it for the rest of his life. My familiy is all very upset. people i dont expect to cry or even show emotion are very sad. Im confused why im not. i dont feel any sadness. i visited him in the hospitol and everything and i dident feel anything it was just like any other time i was with him. Is there something wrong with me? why dont am i not the one who is upset? i mean im always the sensitive one. i always cry over stupid things and yet one of THE MOST important people in my life is dieing. and i feel nothing. what the hell.