okay, was diagnosed a week ago, and im scared to fuck. my episodes are getting more rapid, im crashing up to four times a day. but my highs make me a nasty person to be around, i become so selfish! stopped self harming 4-5 months ago, really craving it again. i dont want to let everyone down i want to be the person i was four years ago! hospital are gonna give me therapy, but i dont trust them to look after me. any advice to help me cope?