I don't post much as I'm always in chat. Its sad really, I spend my entire waking hours in chat. I used to work. Worked all my life. I'm 51 now and in March will have been on Disability for 2 years. Sitting in this chair. I'm just a useless lump of humanity. So sad that my life is like this but I haven't the strength to change it. I've been sick and in pain for months and have no insurance so all the doctors and tests come out of my savings. I'm so scared that I will become destitute because my disability isn't enough to live on. I await test results. Could be cancer, dunno. But there are sure to be more expensive tests after that. Its so sad, when I went to get cat scan everyone had someone with them except me. I'm so alone. Makes me wonder why I go on. Old, no family, only 1 real IRL friend, no one to really be there to help. Sometimes its days before I take a bath, and I never get dressed except for when I have to go to the store or a doc. House is a mess. Bills to be paid. I am so afraid and lonely and wonder why I keep on.