Found out one night while being on here that it's probably going to be harder than I thought to end it so now I'm afraid to try. But I don't want to do anything productive like clean or go places because why bother? My arthritis (after being stable for 15 years) is now travelling rapidly through my body. Had a second date with some guy. Think/hope I chased him away. Sent out a text to my sibs, something jokey about checking out because of the pain, because I wanted them to have a heads up.