I am in a bit of a panic mode because I know that I need to seek out therapists tomorrow, I have to call around and see what options are available to me. I have promised someone important to me that I would do this, and I don't break my promises, though I have put it off a few times already because I am scared to make the call. Because I don't know what to say, or maybe because it is such a big step. It all just seems pretty overwhelming for me. I know that I have needed help for a very long time, and I'm surprised I put it off until now. I don't know exactly what I am scared of, maybe the fact that I will be talking about my life and that is sure to dredge up some painful memories, and I may not be equipped to deal with them. Even the fact of just calling and talking on the phone and setting up an appointment is kicking my anxiety into high gear. Has anyone ever felt like this before, and if so, how did you deal with it?