Hello all, I am a 39 year-old female. I have been having suicidal thoughts since a traumatic incident about a year ago. I have no plan, just the pervasive feeling of hoplessness, and that I do not wish to be here anymore. I once tried to explain my feelings to a family member, who immediately wanted to call an ambulance and have me taken to the hospital. I am very afraid that if I speak up about this, I will hospitalized and be forced to be medicated. I can understand this if I were actually trying to hurt myself, but I am not. Thoughts are not crimes, even if they are terrible thoughts. So my question is, how can I speak with someone about this without having my freedom taken away?