Afraid to quit

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by Rayvon, Mar 27, 2013.

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  1. Rayvon

    Rayvon Member

    I have been doing cocaine on a very regular basis with somewhere of 3/4 of every paycheck going towards my habit. In the recent months I have migrated to heroin and I am scared of the road I seem to be going on. I know that while the times I am doing the drugs life can seem less daunting and I am more able to handle to stress that comes with it, at the same time I know how detrimental it is for me. My main fear is by quitting will I give up my only means to escape and therefore be more prone to taking harsher actions?
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hun now is time to reach out ok it will only get worse you will need more stronger substance get help NOW hun get into rehab do that for YOU hugs
  3. Theodora

    Theodora Well-Known Member

    What Total Eclipse told you to do you already knew. I hope you also know and are ready for what I say. You need to sort out or find other ways of dealing with the feelings, problems that you use drugs to escape from.
    Get help. Use the money you spend on drugs on specialist therapy backed up with a self help group. Good luck.
  4. jimk

    jimk Staff Alumni

    Rayvon you need good professional medical help to get off these drugs..trying on your own may put you in real danger..

    Been there done this about 34 yrs ago.. Also do you know what you are running away from using this much drugs??? This probably is a habit to avoid something really bad.. This may also require some professional mental health help..

    Get some help soon..
  5. Rayvon

    Rayvon Member

    I know I need professional help, I am just afraid that I won't know how to deal with everything. I have a lot of skeletons in my closet and a past I wish not to remember.
  6. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    That is where 'support' comes into it Rayvon. I think you should get yourself referred to an addiction specialist to help you cope.
  7. paulhewson

    paulhewson Well-Known Member

    There's a good chance you'll wind up behind bars, for starters. Worse, maybe even dead. Either way, it can't end well if you continue down this path. I can't preach to you about long-term quitting, because I've been on this same path, only with alcohol, and have never been able to quit completely.

    At least try quitting, if only for a while, to clear your head. That way you may be able to make decisions without being under the influence.
  8. thepainwithin

    thepainwithin Well-Known Member

    My two friends, brothers, died within a day of each other of heroin over doses. It was the most tragic thing I've ever dealt with.

    My other friend had a close friend who got into cocaine, the doctor told him if he continued to use more, he would most likely die within the next time few times of using because his heart was so messed up.

    I've seen addiction first hand. I'm struggling with my own addictions. No one on here can make you change, believe me, while this is a good site to go when you need to talk, no one can ever tell you anything here that will make everything ok. That has to come from you.

    I dont use heroin, but I read a website called heroin helper, which does not promote heroin, there are apparently natural remedies people use to ween themselves off heroin. Something about crushing dried poppys and making an opium tea... They slowly switch from the drug to the tea which is a lot easier to get off of.

    Check out websites like that. It is ran by an ex user who understands heroin addiction first hand, more than any doctor or non user ever could. He gives advice to everyone; from how to be safe while using to tips on how to handle detox.

    He is not pro heroin, but he is anti demonization of drug addicts, he understands what people are going through. And he is constantly reiterating that, no matter how long you've been using, whether its your first time or 1000th, 1 bad batch can kill you.

    I recommend starting your journey on a website like that as it leads to other resources. Maybe HH isn't the best, or even good, but I like his perspectives on government hypocrisy when it comes to drugs. Some things he says are a stretch.

    Good luck.
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