I dont really know what to do about the hopelessness I've been feeling. I've had this problem for many years now, and have mainly dealt with it on my own, however the last few bouts I've had have been really bad, and in the last instance I saw a counsellor who recomended i see a doctor because she felt I was suffering from depression. however, I do not wish to see a doctor. and I dont want to know if i have depression or some other disorder. i basically dont want to be on pills or let my family know whats going on with me or how im feeling. I'm finding it difficult enough to deal with home and other people as it is I guess i just dont know what to do. I normally deal with how im feeling with alcohol but lately, its been worst. and i dont want to burden the people i know with my own personal issues does anyone have any insight into my issues?