i feel i am stuck in a rut, and a big part of myself is missing. I really wish i wouldn't have survived. I am isolating a lot more that i was before i attempted suicide again, i never go anywhere, i only go to appointments and come straight home. I don't talk to anyone, i never answer my phone. I just don't know what to do. I know now that if i decide to do it again, i know the RIGHT way to do it now, i won't try another OD. Something has got to give already, i mean fuck! Haven't i suffered enough al-fucking-ready? I just want it to stop. How much is a person supposed to fucking take?