It has been 9 days since my attempt (a serious one) and today I am still at the psy ward at the hospital. I feel like I really want to go out and do my life but at the same time it scares me loads just to think on leaving the hospital. Is it normal to feel both things at the same time? Same is happening with my suicidal thoughts, one day I feel like I can restart my life and another day I feel like the only thing that makes me feel better is the idea of dying. Am I going nuts?