i just did it again. i feel soo damn good after cutting myself with a buchelor knife, i like to see the blood coming out. i feel like everything could end tonight. yes i´m drunk again and i don´t feel the pain. i´m sad again and i like it. i´m driving myself crazy and i like it. it feels like if i die tonight it will be painless, i feel so damn good now, i like being like this, why my boyfriend want to take away the onlything i still enjoy? because he loves me i know but i don´t care you know. i don´t care about nothing tonight jut me and my knife...................... i will go to eat supper now, see you around!!!!!!!!