This is my post here... I have anxiety and depression and the first time I cut was when I was having a fight with my friend. That time I feel really lost and didn't know what to do, so I did it. And then the next time I do it again and again. My cut gets deeper and deeper day by day.. Even when I'm not feeling sad, I have the urge to cut, and I have these voices inside my head shouting at me telling me to cut. I feel like cutting is a part of routine, I talked about this with my counselor and I did try to stop but I feel really uneasy when I don't cut for weeks and in the end I did it again. There's time where I really regret for cutting because it hurts and promised myself not to cut again, but I can't control myself... I feel like I love the smell of blood and those time where I have to use a towel to stop my hand from bleeding... and the voices in my head were saying "it doesn't matter if you cut, no one cares" I feel so lost, part of me want to stop cutting and part of me really love cutting..