I Just need to do it, im tired i wanna go to bed, and i know if i go now, ill do it again.i need to feel the blade against my skin. the blood coming out, the pain caressing me. i cant cry because people is around me, i cant yell because some other people is sleeping, i can cut if i go to sleep now. and i dont want anything else but doing that now. I soo much need it. almost like breathing, i dont want to stop i just dont want to. and yet i cant do it now, im not alone , and its pissing me off.