I did it again, this time I pushed it further, did it longer. I just couldn't taike the temptation not to hurt myself. Another trial run? I didn't really want to die, I just wanted to hurt myself. I tried to call three friends, none of whom were home, and I just gave in after that. I couldn't take the way I felt. Now I can't go on my other forum or call any other friends because I promised not to do it and I would have to either lie or admit it and they might call the cops again. I will be ok.