One idea that drives my suicidal thoughts is that I'm going to be like this the rest of my life if I don't go through with it. I know a lot of people who have been like this for decades, and I can't imagine being able to cope with feeling alone for that long. One of my favorite musicians is Elliott Smith, who killed himself in his 30's after receiving the best possible treatment money can buy. I often think about how throughout his entire life he must have suffered through depression before finally taking that route. I know it seems kind of juvenile to try and relate myself to some musician, but I was just wondering if your ability to cope gets easier with time. I understand this is a pro-life forum and you may feel that the only way to help a young person like me is to tell me the most hopeful answer, but please don't. I just want your honest opinion. Maybe I should rephrase the question to be more specific to your own individual experiences, rather than ask if overall it can or cant get better.