I convinced myself that for the past year I was over my depression. I stopped harming myself, and my grades went back up and it felt like everything was alright. I think I am starting to realize that I was just ignoring things, not actually getting better. Slowly I started sleeping at least twelve hours a day, many times more. Instead of harming myself I would do things like donate blood, not to do something good but to watch the blood drain out of me. I have low blood sugar too, so many times I would end up passing out afterwards. I started peircing my ears, letting them heal over and peircing them agian so that I felt like I wasn't hurting myself, but just doing the normal teenager thing. Nightmares have started up agian, and most nights I end up crying for hours before I can actually sleep. I have been taking my anger out on myself on other people and lashing out. I don't know if I should start seeing my psychologist and/or psychiatrist agian. Talking never really helped, and I've been on four different medications, most of which just made things worse. It's scary to feel myself falling in this abyss agian, I find myself laying around all day doing nothing and the thing is, I don't have the energy to do anything. It's difficult to get out of bed, let alone do other things. I don't know how to fix this when I'm too tired, too worn out.