As I've said before but want to say again, I've been here for almost two years and haven't accomplished anything, I don't know anyone here, nobody knows me, I mostly just post in the Coffee Loungue, I'm wasting my time. This isn't a bad forum, but I just can't say whats wrong with me. I am the problem of course. I feel really depressed about this and frustrated, who wouldn't? I'm the most pathetic member here, have over 2000 posts and haven't done anything here at all, damn it. Shows at least one way how much of a loser I am huh? I am depressed, I do think about suicide, never attempted, have no plans, etc. I dunno if I can get better and I do something with my life from now on, I feel that my whole life so far has been empty and a waste and it will still continue to be that way and even if it gets better, I feel rotten that my whole life has been a waste. But that doesn't matter, I shouldn't focus on the past, easier said than done. Argh! What should/can I do? All signs say that I should not commit suicide. But then I'm stuck in this crappy life, yeah I am very confused and empty and lost and just dunno what to do. What to freaking do?