My fiance left me after 3 1/2 years together right before we were going to start planning our wedding. She has done nothing but try and make me feel like shit. Right now all I want to do is go over to her house and let her see my wrist that I cut last night to relieve some pain and stress right before I shoot myself in her bedroom.
In college I was very suicidal, I got to the point where atleast 3 times a day I would be sitting in my dorm room and I could see the blood running down my my hand and dripping off of my fingers on the cold white floor. Since I got with her I have not had this "daydream" or "illusion" but now that she has left me I am having it and it is getting more and more frequent by the day. I really have no idea what to do, the only person keeping me alive right now is my puppy and I just don't want her to lose her mom and her dad but the urges are building. I'm bipolar and I can not control myself any longer.
Zebra
In college I was very suicidal, I got to the point where atleast 3 times a day I would be sitting in my dorm room and I could see the blood running down my my hand and dripping off of my fingers on the cold white floor. Since I got with her I have not had this "daydream" or "illusion" but now that she has left me I am having it and it is getting more and more frequent by the day. I really have no idea what to do, the only person keeping me alive right now is my puppy and I just don't want her to lose her mom and her dad but the urges are building. I'm bipolar and I can not control myself any longer.
Zebra