I guess this post could go in a few other forums as well, but here goes. I don't know what to do. My parents caught on to my drinking and left the empty bottles of vodka out on the table in my basement for me to find. I knew something was wrong before I found them. They won't even speak to me; I don't get it....they drink every night too, just not as much. It's only been the past 6 weeks or so I switched to almost every night....otherwise I couldn't sleep or would just break down crying. I guess my question is, should I just suffer through the withdrawals? I get shaky when it comes up on 24 hours with no alcohol. My anxiety gets really bad, and I have always had bad anxiety. I have to take a xanax to get through my shifts. So should I just try to use xanax to come off of it? My life is unbearable right now. I literally have nothing to live for. My whole family is against me. I have no friends or relatives to turn to or talk to. I'm probably going to get kicked out soon based on what they said. What kind of life is worth living where you work like 60 hours a week to pay your bills and all you do is work and sleep with no one in it? Part of me hopes I have a seizure and die from withdrawals. And I don't mean it in a vindictive way....I just can't take the pain anymore. I stayed sober for a long time before and nothing really changed. I'm sorry for the long post.