Hi, I recently had a bit of an alcoholic relapse that messed me up to a large degree both physically and psychologically. Basically my problem is, if I drink too much, I do stupid shit, lose control and wake up the next day not remembering anything. I absolutely hate the feeling the next day. I hate the fact that I've lost control and exposed myself to danger by being so vulnerable because, quite literally, anything can happen in this drunken state. It's not really the quantity of alcohol I drink but its effect. Aware I have this problem, I've carefully managed it over the years so that I drink in moderation. Unfortunately, on the rare occasion, I've slipped up and the above scenario repeats itself. I'm now thinking that I may just have to stop drinking permanently to avoid repetition of this. I've not had a drink for a few weeks now, although not without going through some unpleasant cold turkey in the evenings. I'm wondering if I should go to an AA meeting to talk about this...'a problem aired is a problem shared and all that'...but it's not as if I need telling is it? I'm wondering if I could use marijuana as a substitute, which would at least not end me up in situations like that described above.