TW: ALCOHOLISM Hi there, I just wanted to write something, maybe I need help. I'm drunk right now. It's 9:30pm on a Tuesday night and I have a History midterm tomorrow. I don't know how to stop drinking to feel better. I drink to feel numb, but in reality it really doesn't help much. I used to bring drinks to school, whiskey and soda. I've had drinks hidden in soda bottles, water bottles. I've drank on the bus, in class, bathrooms, at home, in the morning. I think I have a problem but I don't know why I'm trying to convince myself otherwise? I drink almost every weekend, even if it's just myself, and I'm not 21 yet. I'm worried my friends are judging me when I ask them to buy me stuff. I just don't know how to cut down. Because I know if I stop completely I'll relapse bad. I just want to be able to control it. Any advice? Thanks for reading!