alcoholism is creeping up on me

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by goodbyebluesky, Jan 26, 2012.

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  1. I'm 21 and in college. Alcohol is involved in so many social activities. It's the center of a lot of things... so it's pretty much impossible to be away from. The past few weeks I've been drinking to cover up my pain only to sober up and feel even worse. Last night, for the first time ever, I had a huge craving to drink. It really scared me. and I gave in to the craving. I was at home, alone. That's never happened before. I don't want to crave the buzz.. I don't want to live like that... it gives me more to hurt over :( plus alcoholism/addiction runs in my family and to a huge degree so I'm really playing with fire here. I'm scared and I feel I have no control over this.
  2. Witty_Sarcasm

    Witty_Sarcasm Eccentric writer, general weirdo, heedless heathen

    If you are around alcohol in social situations, maybe you can avoid the places where alcohol is available. It's always tempting as long as it is there. Alcoholism runs in my family too, so it can be an uphill battle not to drink too much. Is there anything you can do to distract yourself from the cravings? Maybe you can find another way of coping with the pain.
  3. crystalclear

    crystalclear Well-Known Member

    Maybe you could ask a really good friend of yours to help distract you or steer you out of those kinds of social situations...
  4. jimk

    jimk Staff Alumni

    alcohol is a sneaky lil demon.. at first some comfort and different feelings instead.. can rapidly progress to a constant habit and sober becomes distant.. the hangovers are terrible which causes you to start all over again to get away.. if this is getting to an obsession and entrenched upon you maybe trying to get some sessions wiht a college counselor would help you.. you are not the first and will not be the last with this..

    also look for some other good ppl that are not doing this and try to attach with them a bit.. hope you are doing ok now.. tc, Jim
  5. Anju

    Anju Well-Known Member

    A lot of people don't believe you can be an alcoholic at our age, but I know from personal experience that alcohol can and does catch many people young. Your peers might laugh at you for rejecting alcohol at parties, but wouldn't you rather that than have those same people shaking their heads about you in ten years time when you can't cope without it? It's best to nip these things in the bud. If you feel you can't drink socially without turning to alcohol while you are alone, then try your hardest to avoid it. You don't have to avoid socialising, just say no to the alcohol. Don't have any in your house, tell a few close friends that you want them to support you not drinking. You could even just tell them you're trying out a healthy lifestyle change. Please don't fall into the trap of alcohol, I know it's hard and with family history it's even harder. But it's also even more incentive not to do it, if you know what I mean? I mean you can see what it has done to your relatives. Sorry if I sound like I'm talking down to you or whatever, I just wanted to give an honest reply. You CAN control these urges. And even if you have the occasional slip up, that doesn't mean you've lost control. Hope you can find another way to cope that is less harmful <3
  6. roguefishfood

    roguefishfood Member

    I worry that I am the same.

    I'm 24, with a family full of alcoholics that I promised I'd never be like.

    I drank in excess between 17-21, then stopped drinking for about two years straight. Not for any reason, I just didn't feel like it, it stopped being enjoyable. Then I moved across the planet and things are better here, but for some reason, I feel the urge to drink. I know it's slowly becoming bad, because I almost don't care about it when I'm in a social situation, but whenever I'm alone at home, I want it. I have a bottle of vodka in my freezer at all times.
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