I'm 21 and in college. Alcohol is involved in so many social activities. It's the center of a lot of things... so it's pretty much impossible to be away from. The past few weeks I've been drinking to cover up my pain only to sober up and feel even worse. Last night, for the first time ever, I had a huge craving to drink. It really scared me. and I gave in to the craving. I was at home, alone. That's never happened before. I don't want to crave the buzz.. I don't want to live like that... it gives me more to hurt over plus alcoholism/addiction runs in my family and to a huge degree so I'm really playing with fire here. I'm scared and I feel I have no control over this.