Woke up in intensive care, on a ventilator, lines in my neck, feet, arms, hands. 2 nights in there one on ward. Monitors beeping, a nurse holding my hand. Police were called, parents and family informed. Mum flown home from holiday at a cost of nearly £500. So now I have guilt, and regret it didn't just bloody work. So now I am looking for accidental. I need to blog about it, but at the moment I don't have the energy. I don't know where to begin. I still don't want crisis team involvement, they threatened sectioning. Long story. Tomorrow I will blog about it.