Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by The_Discarded, Oct 10, 2008.
I want to quit.
can't even be bothered....
Rae-chan :hug: I'm here for you if you need me. :wub: :wub:
:sad: What's wrong?
it's a fucking cycle it's all bullshit
i dont' care....i really don't.
don't worry about it.
Well I care :smile:
Here for you :hug:
It IS all bullshit...honest to kerYst - I do NOT get why we're supposedly obligated to put up with it!
Sorry I can't help ya' - But I HEAR ya...
:hug: Rae. :wub: *Insert generic I care and I'm here comment.* ('cept, I do care and I am here if you need me. h
What is going on Rae? I know you have lots of members here that you can turn to if you need to talk or vent. Please use them for support if you need. :hug:
support support support
i dunno why i'm posting here
i dunno why i do anything
i dunno what the fuck i want everything just keeps fucking up i just keep fucking it up but i can't fucking juuggle everything
i always get through this shit i always do
so it probably doesnt matter now
i can't quite break this....
i always get through it yes and then i'm ok for a few days but what of that?
why go through literal hell for a week and then be okay for a week and then go through hell then be ok then go through hell then be ok then hell then...
why not just be dead instead
no one seems to understand
probably because i don't express anything
not coherently, anyway
and if coherently then barely at all
i really just ...
I thought over this for an hour, at least, I don't what to say, except , for you I'd probably go damn far.
Sounds retarded, ok...
Seems that you consider the things you need to juggle more important than your own life. You must love these things very much - is that love reciprocated? Or is that why it feels such a waste of time ... or "bunch of bullshit"?
nothing nothing nothing
yes i "love" these things
is it reciprocated? i dunno - won't dare to ask. doubt it is.
i just keep going through every day in the same pseudo-cheerful disposition doing all that i can to make everyone happy and all the while am damned far from happy myself.
i'm really fucking kidding myself because i'm one of those people for whom there is no hope
my head is way past fucked up and nothing can be done about it and nothing ever will.
and really? i don't care
but there's a part of me that's still trying to hold onto something...anything...
and every time i go grasping for it...it's not there....
it's just all too fucked up
and it's probably my fault, i dunno...i don't really care anymore. i just want out but so many forces are keeping me from it.
i sound like the rest of the whiny douchewads who bring everything on themselves.
whatever...thanks guys...for wasting your time replying to such a useless fuck-up. i really do appreciate it contrary to the crap i maty be saying right now :hug: i'm just in over my head.
i feel like i'm in a goddamn movie or something whose screenplay writer is a twisted piece of shit in need of psychiatric evaluation.
I'd imagine that almost everyone in here thought/thinks they were/are a useless fuck-up - and I mean really felt/feels it, not just the whiny "give me attention" sort of "I'm a fuck-up" statements.
This will probably sound like more bullshit right now but I'm going to say it anyway - no reason to not say it really. From what you've said on the boards, sounds like the only thing you've fucked up is the things that others expected you to accomplish.
Unless you've got several girls pregnant that you can't support, fell asleep causing a train accident and/or weren't paying attention when lighting fireworks next to a kids playpark then you haven't fucked up anything.
Sounds like you're very much on your own. Reaching for a rope to pull yourself out but no-one will lower it for you. Bloody bastards, eh? You can choose to drown easy enough - but personally, I'd find another way out of the water, find the arseholes that wouldn't lower the rope and beat the shit out of them ... metaphorically speaking of course.
ok fair enough
Don't give up Rae. :hug:
I dont know you, and i dont know the things that are causing you to feel the way you do, but i do know people here care for you dearly and only want to help.. I pray all this ets better got you Rae, and you do find happiness somewhere in all this clouded darkness..
He's drunk. Leave him alone.
Get two more hit pal & you'll be snoring your ass sleeping happy.
so does everyone else, Jess.