That's just the kind of person I became, listless, spiritless, that's me. Sometimes I myself can't understand how that was possible for me to change like this. I think and remember who I used to be, all the dancing, all the energy...all dead inside. I thought that this kind of thing only happened to very bad people, evil people....I was wrong..that's just the way the universe works, I could finally learn. It's not about being good or bad, about being nice to people, about caring, about being sympathetic, it's not about any this, it is all about being lucky or not. If you're lucky, it doesn't matter if you are the most evil person on the planet, you'll be fine. So all I can say to anyone who comes to read this is..GOOD LUCK!