So, this is about me & my struggles. I warn you all, this may be triggering, and very long, so you should get a cuppa and biscuits. :cake: I have eating disorders (a mixture of binge eating disorder, bulimia and anorexia), these have affected me for many years now, I am in recovery but I still continue to slip up and struggle day to day with them. Right now, I'm relapsing, but not full blown, yet. I have alcohol and drug addictions, both of which have caused havoc in my life, and continue to at times. I have been binge drink free for quite a few months now, I've only had about 2-3 binge drinking sessions last year(2009) Regarding my drug addiction, I take narcotics for my medical condition, M.E and other medical problems, so it is extremely hard to keep it under control and take it for the reasons it has been given to me. I have Emotional Dysregulation. It affects my life severely, and has done for many years now. I have been a Self Harmer since I was 7. I continue to harm myself but it's not as severe. I have ADHD, combined type. I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder & Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Both cause extreme distress. I've been suffering from them both since a very young age. I have Receptive Language Difficulties. This complicates how I interpret and understand what is being said to me, it really does cause a lot of problems in my life however I am trying to cope with this difficulty,and though it may never go away, or I may always struggle with receptive language, I will continue to try and cope with it. I have Severe and Complex Emotional Needs, and this was on my special needs statement. Self explanatory. I have Depression. Medically, I have M.E(Myalgic Encephalopathy), I developed it late 2008. I'm moderately-severely affected. Bedbound the majority of the day. Very rarely go out. Now needing a wheelchair. My family doubt how ill I am, and they say a lot of things that have upset me badly, I've been told it's in my head, fake, attention seeking,hypochondria, anxiety, depression, etc. It really has affected me, and I get zilch support from family members. I also have Acid Reflux Disease. This is more under control right now, but it flares up frequently. The possibilities I could have; Borderline Personality Disorder & Dependent Personality Disorder. I have all the symptoms of both of these disorders, and these symptoms severely affect me. I'm just waiting to turn 18 for these to be diagnosed, but they've said I have Emotional Dysregulation for now. It's suspected that I'm on the Autistic Spectrum, but there has been no diagnosis, and I doubt there ever will be, but it does explain a few things. I dropped out of school in year 7 very much because of this, and returned in late year 9 to a special educational needs school. This impacted me a lot, and caused deterioration in my learning skills as well. I was in a special educational needs school from year 9 till year 11, where I was given a special educational needs statement. My needs were somewhat met, however, they still failed to meet all of my needs, as said, they are severe and complex. I did, however become *over* attached to my tutor, she was a lovely lady, and like a mother to me. I miss her terribly. I have tried to kill myself since I was 8 years old, more than 30 times, I've actually lost count. Some were lethal methods, they failed, obviously. I continue to feel suicidally depressed. I have been sectioned into a psychiatric ward for 28 days which they failed to help me at all, and at 13 years of age, considered it a"phase" after lethal attempts to end my life. Yes, of course it is a "phase" to be suicidally depressed and very unstable for as long as I can remember. I have been seeing Child and Adolescent Mental Health Services since I was about 7, and I've just gotten increasingly worse as the years went by. I've seen countless professionals & not many have had success with helping me. I no longer see anyone anymore. I have been on the child protection register before for both abuse/neglect & for being a threat/danger to myself. I was taken off of that last year. I'm now planning to ask to be referred to Adult Services & hoping for things to be taken more seriously & for some sort of proper help & to "click" with a professional. Well, I realize this is a lecture, I thank you for reading all of this. :love: Feel free to PM me whenever.