I really thought id shook this feeling. but i guess i really havent. ive tried so bloody hard this time.. and im still doing it wrong. whats wrong with me.. why cant i do anything right? why am i such a screw up. I want this all to end.. i dont want to be here anymore. i dont want to feel like this, why have people got to make it worse? why do i let people in? they dont change anything do they? why do i fall for all the people that really couldnt give a damn and just out for themselfs. why cant i listen to the people that actually try to help me? I just want to stop breathing right now. im losing the fight with myself.