i feel like I'm all alone. I'm new to the area I live in, I have "work" friends, but I don't really want them knowing of the things I deal with. I have two kids. 5 and soon to be 2. Their mom, we are in an off and on relationship and she lives with us, but it's been complicated. She seems to have a lot of trouble telling the truth. I always let her back in, or convincing myself she's going to change because she promises she has changed and isn't going to lie to me anymore. But then slowly the web unravels and little lies start coming out. If she lies about little things she probably lies about bigger things. I don't feel like she cares about me at all, even though she says she does. She's really the only person I have to talk to, but i don't feel like I can trust her. I'm in a bad depression. I think about things I shouldn't think about. The only thing that keeps me going is my two boys. But I feel like such a bad parent dealing with these issues. I'm constantly hiding behind a mask to them, to my coworkers, my family. I don't know what to do.