All day I have thought of suicide... I am over it. 3 weeks of meds and still the thoughts don't go away. I keep thinking I'll do it tomorrow, it will have to be this side of christmas, I am exhausted. Another thing really..I am not really about sharing with my core group of friends about my past, how I feel. The depression maybe but not suicide. One close friend and I met for dinner and we discussed my current state for the first time. I received a text each morning and night for a week. One week later not a thing. Granted I haven't made contact but what is with that. Am I suddenly cured. I would prefer not to burden people but why start a ritual checking up on me with a goodmorning and goodnight text (obviously to confirm I wasn't hanging from anything) and then stop. It's kind of like the diet I started last week..Maybe I should have put this in another forum..