Hi guys
I am new to this forum and found this one straight away the best one on the internet did not need to bother to look down the rest of page 1 this one shows allot of promise, it was like god wanted me to come straight here to chat about me being suicidal and trying to heal (famous last words).
A little bit about my life:
From the day I was born to the present day being a 26 year old male in July I have been mentally and physically abused by my father since I was 6 years old, I have been mentally abused by my mother and have always been treated like a bubble boy and a disabled child since I was born, I have been mentally and physically abused at all three of my schools I went to for 6 years non-stop and left when I was 13 years old and have no G.C.S.E’s.
My Aunts husband took a disliking to me and turned his family including my two cousins who I got on with against me and they even managed to poison our whole family against me for a couple of years which included my mum, My whole family thinks I am a loser and a failure just because I have had several careers such as: Golf, Animal Care, Administration and Equine which all crumbled of no fault of my own.
Since I left home when I was 14 years old and living with my grandparents my father has been continuously stalking me even when I am out and about going here there and everywhere and since 2009 I do not speak to my mother.
Since 2002-2007 I spent the majority of my days alone in my bedroom as I had given up altogether with my careers above and life and had been put on benefits from 2002-2010 and still on them. In 2007-2009 I plucked up some courage to learn Web Design and Development at a College near by, I was doing so well until.... the College decided to remove the NVQ Level 1 in Web Design and Development course in September last year, tried to do some more of the small adult courses but the same happened I was not getting enough help and it seemed so repetitive as if it was the same course over and over again as did not learn anything new so I gave up as could not handle the stress any longer.
I have tried to teach myself Web Design and Development since November of last year but I need 1-1 tutoring like anyone does as I am finding it hard to learn on my own. I am at the lowest of the low and relying on bottles of Vodka to help me at night times just so I can relax and be happy! Now the Conservatives have got in they are planning to get rid of benefits especially to people who can work (like me) so I guess I won’t be able to rent a flat as planned to get rid of my mucked up family and live a normal life.
So now you know why I would like to commit suicide where do I go from here? Heaven or try and bear the torture of my family and ruined life, where are the positives??.
I would love to shout out “I GIVE UP TAKE ME TO THE PEARLY GATES NOW!!”.
I hope you can help me out as I do not want to die but by the looks of things it is on the cards so to speak. My catchphrase seems to be “Whatever I do it always goes wrong”.
Kind Regards, **The_End_Is_Nigh**
I am new to this forum and found this one straight away the best one on the internet did not need to bother to look down the rest of page 1 this one shows allot of promise, it was like god wanted me to come straight here to chat about me being suicidal and trying to heal (famous last words).
A little bit about my life:
From the day I was born to the present day being a 26 year old male in July I have been mentally and physically abused by my father since I was 6 years old, I have been mentally abused by my mother and have always been treated like a bubble boy and a disabled child since I was born, I have been mentally and physically abused at all three of my schools I went to for 6 years non-stop and left when I was 13 years old and have no G.C.S.E’s.
My Aunts husband took a disliking to me and turned his family including my two cousins who I got on with against me and they even managed to poison our whole family against me for a couple of years which included my mum, My whole family thinks I am a loser and a failure just because I have had several careers such as: Golf, Animal Care, Administration and Equine which all crumbled of no fault of my own.
Since I left home when I was 14 years old and living with my grandparents my father has been continuously stalking me even when I am out and about going here there and everywhere and since 2009 I do not speak to my mother.
Since 2002-2007 I spent the majority of my days alone in my bedroom as I had given up altogether with my careers above and life and had been put on benefits from 2002-2010 and still on them. In 2007-2009 I plucked up some courage to learn Web Design and Development at a College near by, I was doing so well until.... the College decided to remove the NVQ Level 1 in Web Design and Development course in September last year, tried to do some more of the small adult courses but the same happened I was not getting enough help and it seemed so repetitive as if it was the same course over and over again as did not learn anything new so I gave up as could not handle the stress any longer.
I have tried to teach myself Web Design and Development since November of last year but I need 1-1 tutoring like anyone does as I am finding it hard to learn on my own. I am at the lowest of the low and relying on bottles of Vodka to help me at night times just so I can relax and be happy! Now the Conservatives have got in they are planning to get rid of benefits especially to people who can work (like me) so I guess I won’t be able to rent a flat as planned to get rid of my mucked up family and live a normal life.
So now you know why I would like to commit suicide where do I go from here? Heaven or try and bear the torture of my family and ruined life, where are the positives??.
I would love to shout out “I GIVE UP TAKE ME TO THE PEARLY GATES NOW!!”.
I hope you can help me out as I do not want to die but by the looks of things it is on the cards so to speak. My catchphrase seems to be “Whatever I do it always goes wrong”.
Kind Regards, **The_End_Is_Nigh**
