death. I'm obsessed. I'm fanatical about movies that focus on it, I can spend whole days online reading about it. I have a particular interest in "last words" left before someone kills themself. I have dreams where I am dead and gone to the next world, which I have always dreamed as a nice place. I wake up and you guessed it, I want to BE dead. I often picture myself dead from different events (most sef inflicted). I picture the looks on people's faces when they find me, their reactions. I cry constantly and I'm slowly starting to think that life and death are reversed.