I'm tired of being strong. Im tired of being alone. Im tired of being the only one i talk to daily, looking at people, wishing that they where my friends because they're so nice to me but it's such a hopeless feeling. I try so hard to get help and it's like..at the end of the day all I can do is help myself and Im tired of it. I hear that the only way to fight and win is to get out of it yourself. We all know well enough, that it doesn't work. It just doesn't. I get jealous of people having someone to go to, I have no one. I literally have no one. All I want to do is die but stupidly, I keep fighting. No one cares, no one cares if I die. Im nothing to the world. I can write whatever I want, where ever I want and no one will care. I've tried to reach out and it's pointless. If I did end my life, I wouldn't see how I would lose anything. I have nothing to lose. I literally have nothing to lose. Just like the song by Billy Talent. Nothing to lose, when no one knows your name. There's nothing to gain and I can't fight the pain. It's exactly that.