I run my own business, I have a happy healthy family and I lead two charities that are both doing well in their fields of interest. What's not to like, except today I can't get my head out of 'I want to die mode'. THis is despite feeling good all week so far, and starting ok today. I have barely slept this week - probably why I feel so low now - all driven by my brain not stopping the other night, and me getting about 3 hours sleep. I see why sleep deprivation is used as torture. The mental pain is so high, yet I know that is all it is - pain. I just need to rest from it. How do others get out of the 'suicidal day' mode and back to thinking 'normally'?