I am embarrassed to share this, but I don't give a **** now. I did not wake up until 4 pm yesterday. I logged on to PC at 4:30 pm and ended up staying awake all night. I need to go to the store and am waiting for it to get light out. I have to pick up meds at store and get foods. I thought I once had it all together. I was loved. I had others that loved me back. Where did it all go? You are supposed to depend on those that are there for you. So what happens when they are gone or die? Why do they leave you? Why couldn't I be one of those strong, tough, confident individuls in life that did not need someone to depend on. Why couldn't I know that I AM A GOOD PERSON inside of me????