It really makes no more sense...
How many times have I said to myself it's all going to sort out, but it's not getting better, everything makes me depressed... I mean, I thought my life sucked two years ago, and I hoped it would get better... A lot of things got better, but that didn't make me happier at all... :dry:
The only thing that can really calm depression and anxiety down is thinking about suicide... :sad: I know it's just bad, but I really can't help it... How could anyone help it, I really can't imagine how it could change... I was suppressing frustrations because I hoped I'm going to do something good with my life, but it's just getting more painful... I want to get it over with...
Soon a nice thing's going to happen, nothing weird, it's just a dull hobby... For a month or two I was telling myself to keep it on, at least to see that... Well, so, now I feel like I will really have nothing nice to look forward to later...
Really... I'm so desperate... :blub:
How many times have I said to myself it's all going to sort out, but it's not getting better, everything makes me depressed... I mean, I thought my life sucked two years ago, and I hoped it would get better... A lot of things got better, but that didn't make me happier at all... :dry:
The only thing that can really calm depression and anxiety down is thinking about suicide... :sad: I know it's just bad, but I really can't help it... How could anyone help it, I really can't imagine how it could change... I was suppressing frustrations because I hoped I'm going to do something good with my life, but it's just getting more painful... I want to get it over with...
Soon a nice thing's going to happen, nothing weird, it's just a dull hobby... For a month or two I was telling myself to keep it on, at least to see that... Well, so, now I feel like I will really have nothing nice to look forward to later...
Really... I'm so desperate... :blub:
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