What’s it like. check yourself I’m failing. Bleeding through the nose and all so vast. An entire world rushes around me a whirl all sharp edged beauty and cruel as blood from a stone. My mind is squeezing me to bits No breath or manmade thought I am become terror. There is a world outside my nut and all I want is to curl inside and hide until the noise stops. The world is too loud too bright too fast and I all raw edges. I want an exoskeleton to keep out the unholy din. If you are waiting for me to start it stop. I am the deer in the road blind I’ll not be moving. My eyes are wide and everywhere calamity looms.