I have been reading a few dating sites and reading endless things about how to attract girls but i just started thinking to myself i don't really like all this stuff. Some say love isn't real and all that but i don't believe in all that stuff. I don't believe you have to constantly watch your back and never let your guard down in life, who wants to live like that. Im a nice guy so i don't do so well with girls but sometimes i wonder why i even care about getting girls. I mean as long as i find someone before i die i'll be fine. But this whole getting a girl thing has been the theme of my life since i was in preschool and now its like. They don't like me. Im just tired of this whole trying to get a girl theme now, i still want a girlfriend but the whole theme is tiring and boring. Im going all over online asking for advice but no one will give it to me, no one has any answers and now the whole thing is just stupid now. Im not going to do all this seduction and secret technique stuff just to get a girl, thats too much work. Not only that but you have to use alot of improvising and making up interesting topics on the spot. Im no good at that. Anyways another thing thats been bothering me is my mom's religon. Well its kind of mine but not really. Im unsure if God is real but if he is doesn't that mean he's always watching me. I don't think im comfortable with someone always watching me forever. It seems kind of creepy, but it's just something that came to me while i was thinking. Its like all these bad thoughts are filling my head to stress me out.