what will 2008 bring, more pain, more memories, more illnesses. Living in pain, living with torture, living to be hit, living to make others happy. Tired, not sleeping, in pain all the time. head hurting, feel dizzy, sick. what is the point in living another minute, another hour, another day just to be meet with the same or worse. I've been fighting, I meet a new guy 2 weeks ago, but its the same as always he just wants sex, he's demanding, he calls, and he's aggressive. the circle of life for me is this always. I don't want it anymore. I've lost all my family, friends, i'm tired of being so alone, feeling so lonely, hating myself, cutting no longer helps, drinking no longer helps, so alone with my thoughts, my feelings. its all become too much for me.