Hey, um, I don't know what to say really, I don't really know why I joined this site. I was feeling pretty desperate at the time. I guess I'll explain why I'm here. I'm 16 and am finding things very hard at the minute. My family and friends found out I self harmed and I am struggling to stop, unbeknown to my parents who think I have. They recently found out the reasons behind my pain. I was sexually abused by both my sister and grandad for as long as I can remember, up until I was about 10. It was a horrific time and I have never really admitted it to myself mainly because I was made to believe it was my fault, which I still believe although I shouldn't. I have been bullied for almost my entire school life. I developed BDD (Body Dismorphia) because of these and several other incidents. And, well, very long story short, I haven't stopped contemplating suicide for the last few months, but I know this is the easy way out, and there is no way back after, so I guess I joined because I know it's not what I really want, and I'm hoping to find help here. I don't know what else to say, so I'll wrap things up by saying thank you for reading whilst I complain, it means something to know somebody took the time out of their own lives to consider one as insignificant as mine.