I cant tell my therapist how far my thinking has gone. I even drove to where i would go. I just cant spit it out. I feel that our sessions have been more distant. I know that is probably me with the bpd just feeling that way. ive been feeling distant from everyone. From my kids to those on my treatment team. My anger is out of control. Im just falling apart. Im depressand just dont see a way out. Im also cutting and my mind seems to go somewhere but i dont know where it goes. I think im beyond hope.