I have 24 days clean today. Less than a week now until the one month mark. Shit's been really tough. I'm not sure how I made it this far even. I still want to get high all the time, but I've been okay enough not to act on it. Only shitty thing is that my stomach's been killing me the past week or so, which makes me want to get high even more. But the reason it hurts in the first place is because I got high. Opiates constipate me and screw up my digestive system and shit. So obviously it'd be stupid to just use and make it worse. Knowing that is what's stopping me. Well, that, and the fact that I met someone I really care about and don't want to ruin it. But it just sucks because doctors can't do much about it. Medicine doesn't do much. I sure as hell can't do anything about it. Death would fix it. But I have a boyfriend now who I love, so I don't want to die. So, I'm kind of screwed. Sigh.