OK, not really 'almost', I don't think there was ever any real danger of it happening, but I'm still feeling mega weird about it.
I've been with my wife for years, and get on with her great: we're happy. Then completely randomly I was out with my (female) boss the other night, while we were staying in another city for a conference. A few of us went out for dinner and then drinks afterwards - done this loads of times.
So anyways, it's getting late, and it's just me and the boss left, which is usually the case as we are the drunkards of the pack. Bar closes, so end up going back to my hotel room and raiding the mini bar (helpful note: this is not advisable, my credit card almost melted the next day when I had to pay the bill....and the lady at checkout made me list everything we'd had....cow ). Also done the 'back in the room' thing loads of times, but there is usually a few of us. Didn't think anything of it with it just being me and her, as we've been friends for years.
So a couple more hours of progressive drunkenness ensued, with lots of youtube music being played...then we started dancing (just the two of us in the room, so we must have been very drunk) then it kinda got a bit weird and felt quite distinctly that something naughty could very easily happen.
Got my head together, backed off a bit, and then we both just ended up falling asleep, fully clothed, on the separate beds.
Was a bit weird the next day, as we both kind of acknowledged (without actually saying anything) that something could have happened, and are both a bit embarrassed about it I suppose.
But I have just been feeling so bizarre since. A mix of:
A sort of buzz/self-worth, as my boss is really hot and way out of my league
Guilt...even though I did nothing
Concern that our friendship might get weird
And honestly.....a bit of regret, wondering what might have been.
I do hope that this strange feeling passes, as I want to get back to my normal life. I'm also a little worried about what might happen in the future when I get to mid-life crisis age!!
I've been with my wife for years, and get on with her great: we're happy. Then completely randomly I was out with my (female) boss the other night, while we were staying in another city for a conference. A few of us went out for dinner and then drinks afterwards - done this loads of times.
So anyways, it's getting late, and it's just me and the boss left, which is usually the case as we are the drunkards of the pack. Bar closes, so end up going back to my hotel room and raiding the mini bar (helpful note: this is not advisable, my credit card almost melted the next day when I had to pay the bill....and the lady at checkout made me list everything we'd had....cow ). Also done the 'back in the room' thing loads of times, but there is usually a few of us. Didn't think anything of it with it just being me and her, as we've been friends for years.
So a couple more hours of progressive drunkenness ensued, with lots of youtube music being played...then we started dancing (just the two of us in the room, so we must have been very drunk) then it kinda got a bit weird and felt quite distinctly that something naughty could very easily happen.
Got my head together, backed off a bit, and then we both just ended up falling asleep, fully clothed, on the separate beds.
Was a bit weird the next day, as we both kind of acknowledged (without actually saying anything) that something could have happened, and are both a bit embarrassed about it I suppose.
But I have just been feeling so bizarre since. A mix of:
A sort of buzz/self-worth, as my boss is really hot and way out of my league
Guilt...even though I did nothing
Concern that our friendship might get weird
And honestly.....a bit of regret, wondering what might have been.
I do hope that this strange feeling passes, as I want to get back to my normal life. I'm also a little worried about what might happen in the future when I get to mid-life crisis age!!