I don't know what's the matter with me to be honest. Everythings going almost okay at the moment. I have a lovely boyfriend. I have lost loads of weight and everyone's saying how great I look. We aren't so skint as before. But at the same time, I feel guilty that he is stuck with a stupid failure like me, I feel fat, everybody's lying, we're having to go to court over debts... It's just all getting to me to be honest... gah... I don't know. Perhaps I'm just being stupid, y'know?