I have Avoidant Personality Disorder and Auditory Processing Disorder. Auditory Processing disorder usually affects kids, but I've had it ever since I was young and still do. I used to get tested every week with the hopes of improving, but it didn't help, so it must have to do with a specific brain development issue, which it sometimes does. My outlook on life changes, even though I am, of course, prone to depression, and it's frustrating. I find the simplest things to be difficult: waking up in the morning, and paying attention to lectures for longer than a brief elapse of time, reading, and having a conversation without being afraid I have done something wrong. I am on my own. Nobody could care less. My death will be my greatest virtue. I don't want a funeral.