Hello again, I am a new member here but just for a few days. I dont think I should realy write what I am going to write as I dont want others to feel encouraged but if you dont mind I would like to be honest with someone. I am a coward, plain and simple. I am going to be gone on Sunday morning. Up untill yetserday evening I think I was looking for a reason to hold on a bit longer and was fooling myself into my choice of suicide. But my ex had seen were I had been looking online recently and asked me if I was going to kill myself, I think she read the whole "what to do if someone is thinking of suicide", and I told her no, I was just a bit intrested in what had been happening to Owen Willson and she bought it. And since that moment I fell great I know this is my path I have no doubt about it now. I still dont like the thought of leaving my loved ones behind, becuase I am fortunate enough not to be alone and do have lots of people how care for me, I just dont belong here. I have left notes for everyone for themselves and a more general note for anyone else. I think I will commit this act outside in a secluded spot as I dont want to put anyone through the missery of finding my body. Like I said before I am not encouraging this act and think life is agreat gift, but its not for me. All of thoses who are here stay here, get help from these great people and remember that everyone has someone how loves them. Thanks for reading this, it helps to tell people how dont know me or judge.