Well, here I am again. I thought it was silly you cannot get rid of your account and such but strangely enough it was nice seeing I'm already logged in when I came here again. There is so much I wish I could do but everytime I find myself not being able to because of the hurt and pain inside. I'm tired of crying all the time for no reason. I am so tired I just want to sleep and never wake up again. I faked being happy through Christmas but I do not feel any happiness. I do not want to go through yet another year. I have no hopes and no dreams left. I'm always exhausted. I am not sure what hearing voices is like. I guess it's not that for me. But I do have this inner voice I'm sure is a very bad habit of talking negative to myself and reminding myself of the bad things in my life I do not want to think about. I cannot control it and it''s so loud. I say to it to leave me alone. I feel like I'm going insane. I can no longer see a future for myself. I know it will be painfull to commit suicide. But I am almost ready for it. I just want to be sure I succeed. I failed so much in life. I am scared of what happens after I die. I'm ready to take a chance because I know what living will be like and I cannot do that.
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